Putting and Watching an Act

Sometimes, we become a person we're not just to please other people. The effort you've been exerting to please them will just be wasted when you suddenly forgot to put your act even for a split second.

But why the hell do we become someone we're not? It's a question that'll be hardly answered by someone who doesn't like herself. Self-awareness. What is it? Does it bring happiness? Self-identity. Is it really that hard to find it?

When you thought that this quality might make them like you, you'll try hard to put it up. But when you suddenly get tired of this (because this is not so you), they just disappear. Like you've never existed in their life.


On the other way around, when you learn that someone whom you really look up to is not the person you thought him to be, you'll just wonder WHY. That's why we should not declare ourselves LIKING them immediately while the only thing we know about them is JUST THEIR NAME. We often see this as a turnoff. Because we liked the person we expect them to be, not the person who they REALLY are.



If the case was they are not really trying to please you, and you just thought of him as "another person", the problem is with you. You like the person you made up. Just like putting up an act and become someone you're not. Man, you're LIVING IN A FICTIONAL WORLD. Reality is reality. Either way, YOU LOSE.

A loser? heh. maybe it is the RIGHTEST term.